Eventful Thursday

Hi Blog! it has been quite some time since I updated. Well I had a very productive Thursday - I took care of my internship application, spoke with my professors, got course approvals for courses to be taken at community over the summer. I am feeling great and am really excited for the next leg of my race of life. I got a fantastic new H&M jacket ... that too bought from Hungary! lol ... I am really gad with my life right now. Although I am also really very tired. I am excited about the Project Runway season finale this time around, but surprisingly not as excited as last times. I just hate it when shows go on and on and on ... but i guess people want to watch them so who are we to judge? Today was chalk day at GWU and we made some really cute chalk drawings on the sidewalks and on the streets. I made a Sun, A woman in a bikini and a sign next to her saying "stop objectifying women" and I made a cute baby seal holding a heart! :) .. It was really fun! I wanted to take pictures but I had no camera! The whole chemistry department drew the periodic table. Some Italians made the Italian flag! WHY??!! anyway I am really glad today was a great day and I am also glad got to see many familiar friendly faces! :D

Liquid

Liquid water
Traveling, waiting, moving
Taking the shape of the vessel of my soul
I am overwhelmed at this point
Brimming, bursting, ready to explode
The glass shatters
I inundate and flood my banks
There is a lull; a sudden peace and calm
I have not felt this way
I did not anticipate this feeling
Emptiness can be so comforting
And yet in this lattice of illusionary harmony lies my devastation

Emotions are the stream of time traveling through the crags of memory
I have reached the delta
I have become the waterfall
The ocean beckons to me
How do I understand its meaning?
Its meaning does not understand me
What understands me is the softened pebble, marble
My dreams have been smoothed out
Pools are where they collect, pools are where they collect
Depth does not matter because it does not exist
Sinking and rising constantly
Moving into the ocean my consciousness
Drowning my everything

Beauty

Beauty is in the eyes
It is in the sweetness of your words
The loveliness of your smiles
The purity of your virtues
And triumph over your trials

Beauty is not physical,
It is an emotion which can be felt maybe from within
Courage, Honor and Charity
Are all beauty to me

An old woman’s wrinkles from her smiles; beauty
A baby in his mother’s arms; beauty
Two lovers locked in a kiss; beauty

But the world lies about beauty,
Hunger, Death and Despair,
It is us that challenge beauty,
We must overcome the ugliness of our pretty faces,
Stop playing this Masquerade
Realize that beauty lies in saving and praying
Rather than war and destroying
There is no glory in spreading innocent blood,
There is no sacrifice in doing away with love,

Beauty is in the eyes of all of us,
We are the beholders,
The holders of this world,
The world is beautiful,
And beautiful are we.

Not the best

Today just started off in the wrong way. I did not get enough sleep in the morning, I got a overdue notice from the library and had to pay effing 10 dollars from my pocket (not that it is a large amount but its BUGGING). I have a weight training exam and I feel completely drained off of all energy. I am basically not in a very happy mood today. To top ot off the Environmental Geology professor showed us images of poor baby animals caught in oil spills! SO SAD I CRIED! Ugh! I just hope that this day progresses and becomes better gradually. Frankly speaking I am getting a little disappointed in how mundane and regular my life has become. My life used to be much more interesting and as the hatter said in Alice in Wonderland I have lost my
"muchness". I just am so confused and I think the real issue is that I do not know what I am doing wrong? what is so confusing! I am trying to be normal but I am so apprehensive. I just feel like I am not ready to be independent - I can't even do basic math and I am on to find a new life. WHAT IS UP WITH THAT? so so so annoying. Only one good thing to look forward to today - real housewives of NYC and I bet my parents won;t let me watch that as well. Ugh ... but as they say ... c'es la vie! and you win some and you lose some. I am counting my blessings but what do you do when you can't count anymore? Are you still grateful then? GIVE ME AN ANSWER OH GREAT ONE UP THERE!