Class & Etiquette

I am considering buying the book 'Class With the Countess' buy Countess Luann De Lesseps. I am hoping that it can teacj me the finer points of how to behave at a social event, at a gathering or a gala. I somehow feel that I might one day be of some importance in the world and if I do not have the proper skills to be in the public eye it would be highly embarrassing for me as well as my family. However one thing is for sure class is not taught one is definitely born with an innate sense of grace and elegance. I just hope that the book is not about how women should behave - albeit that would be its primary demographic. But then again I feel that, even though I respect the Countess a lot, I would not be able to benefit from her book per say. Maybe I should just go and buy a regular etiquette book or maybe go to a finishing school for six months after college. Hm ... I do want to go to finishing school not only do they teach you the right way to dress and carry yourself but they also instruct you how to speak in public how to cook and serve meals how to behave with guests. I would definitely jump on an opportunity like that. The thing really is that I want to create this shell in public - this outer covering that only a few people would be able to see through. I wouldn't call it a shell of pretension but rather a defense mechanism so that I can cherish my true self within my personal group and private life. I don't know why but I feel like I will be a celebrity one day ... ever since I was 4 years old I have been practicing my autograph, I ADORE movies, I want to learn how to sing, I am creative I love painting, I just want to be known the world over as a STAR. But something tells me that I might just end up as a star on national geographic! haha! anyway I will carry on with my dreams ... see you soon Bloggieee! btw ... my cat had 3 kittens aww!

Long Nails

Hey there! you know what my nails are growing long again. I want to cut them but I am too lazy. BLOG! I have the best news ever! Amiya is coming to USA to study ... I am so happy you know. I really feel blessed to have a bff like her - she is so intelligent, beautiful and caring. But she is a bitch too :). Blog, I saw Alice in Wonderland today and it made me realize that my mind is much more imaginative than that it all seemed so normal to me. But the sad thing is my life is pretty darn ordinary. But you know I think I will make a list of weird things about me!

1. I like to talk to myselves out loud
2. I am heavily into the occult, psychic things etc
3. I love murder and blood and gore ... but only in movies ... in reality I wouldn;t hurt a fly and I am one of the nicest people ever
4. I have a wacky sense of humor
5. I pronounce people's names funnily
6. I burst out into song in public
7. I am addicted to sugar and I get a high from eating it
8. I de-stress by cooking complicated french desserts
9. I like to spy on people and evesdrop in on coversations ... even if I don't know who people are
10. I always admire my reflection everytime I see it


I think that its pretty normal though ... all these things. Eh anyway. Oh Blog!! CLEO IS GONNA HAVE BABIES AGAIN! :)

Party time? or guilty time?

I have recently pondered about the feeling of guilt associated with doing nothing. Even when there is nothing to do, really. I feel that way a lot, as if when I am not busy I am empty. I hate feeling empty. I used to have my best friends to rely on and hang out with but now they are back in India and it's getting tougher and tougher to deal with being alone. But there are really two sides of this argument. On one hand I am feeling lonely and lost but on the other I feel like I am maturing and growing more as a person everyday. I really do miss Delhi, but somehow this kind of missing feeling is not associated with any kind of nostalgia, it's more of an intrigue "what's going on, am I missing anything?" Well this emptiness will go away - I am sure. Once I find my life partner. The thing about finding a life partner is that when you least expect it it will happen - NOT NICE! I need to plan everything!! otherwise my life will go haywire. I know I am a freshman in college and my parents say that I need to have "experiences" with other people, but I dunno I feel like I can only have a connection with one person and stay committed for the rest of my life. That's why I am not ding any of that right now. I want to be in it to win it figuratively speaking. Well anyway I think that all these emotions mixed up with the nagging feeling of wanting to do something constantly is what really bugs me and makes me feel more anxious/guilty. Auf Wiedersehen kiddos! xx

COMEDY!

What is comedy? In my opinion ... like many other things comedy can't be defined in one single definition. What I find funny is not necessarily what you find funny. I at times feel like a serial comedian and at other times feel completely hopeless and boring. I always used to wonder what it was that makes me the comedic maestro that I can be at times. It's very simple its a mixture of two things - one is talking to your best friend who you haven't spoken in a long time and the second is a feeling of genuine happiness. I think comedy is a perfect escape from everyday life, it is an amazing solace and it definitely does make everyone around you much much happier. If you want to be funny just a few more words of advice. Be as irreverent as possible, take risks (sometimes people will not laugh (90% guarantee they will), be intelligent with your jokes and don't try to be funny on purpose be your own funny. Another tip do something out of the ordinary for eg. - I was skipping in the rain with my umbrella today and mind you I am an 18 year old man with a goatee. Have fun! and enjoy life! there after all is only one life to live ... or something like that.