It's been a month

A lot has happened in a month. I have joined Northern Virginia Community College at the Alexandria campus and I am doing historical geology and art history. I am so glad that I am doing these courses here - not only are they easier the professors are amazingly sincere and helpful! I love the people that go here too. They are so sweet and down to earth, very different from the crowd that I am used to in GWU. I think I have a legitimate crush after a really long time. Tanushree used to tell me that one can never forget ones first love, but honestly if not for anything else I needed this crush in my life to get over my past. I wanted to get over all the feelings that I had inside me and move on. I now realise that moving on is the toughest part and that once you get closure, it is just that - CLOSURE. I even cleared my friends list on Facebook, getting rid of all the toxicity and negativity in my life that i just could not deal with. I really feel blessed and happy that I have finally settled into the American lifestyle. Honestly, it took me a year! but I am here. I am looking forward to this week because it is my birthday week. i don't know how its going to be! It should be fun. I was feeling sad that I am growing up and hat this will be my final teen. I can no longer rely on "daddy" for everything. I really have to wear the 'grown-up pants' BUT I CAN'T!! I am not that kind of a person. I love to be pampered and spoiled and taken care of. I do not want to take care of myself. Anyway, I know that everything will settle into place and I will finnally get what I want. Somehow, I have come to realise, in my life whatever I have wanted I always get better than that somehow or when it is achieved the circumstances are so different that they fit in to the larger picture seemlessly. that's why I want to correct saying that I will get what I want, rather I will get what is right for me. Hoping for the best! wow happy birthday week to me!