'The One'

I am out on a quest. I do not know what the beginning or the end of this quest was or is - I just know I am on it. I have inhibited myself from the touch of skin, I have never been with someone in 'that kind of way' and, I think, that if I practice this long enough then I will find the one who is right for me. But am I right in thinking that way? I don't know. So many people have told me that I must take initiative if I am to find that certain someone special. I say I already am by waiting for the right one to come along. Sometimes - actually a lot of times - I feel like I am fooling myself, that I am delusional and love doesn't just 'happen'. But fortunately or unfortunately I have witnessed true love blossom in front of my eyes too many a time to negate it's being. I don't think I am scared to be in love if that is the kind of message that I may be giving off. But, rather, I feel the opposite - I feel that love is scared of me. Of what I might do to it. I do feel that I am a creature that might sacrifice love for my own personal gains. But then again I do also feel that I would give up anything on Earth for 'the one'. I just have to feel it - it will be a spiritual connection. I will know it ... will I not?